I never wanted kids...until I met my husband. From the moment I met him, I knew he was going to be a TERRIFIC dad and that we would start a family together. I was lucky in the fact that I had an easy time getting pregnant, as well as an easy pregnancy. I spent my time researching like a typical first-time parent: what cribs are safest, how to prepare for a natural birth, breastfeeding tips, etc. I thought I was very well prepared for Sidney's arrival...but I was wrong. For the first months of Sidney's life, I was in a fog. I cried, I didn't want to get out of bed, I joined every social media group there was and asked for everyone's opinions on what was best for my own daughter...only to be crippled with the overwhelming responses and information. I didn't feel any emotional connection with my daughter. I organized and re-organized clothes and toys to feel like I had some sort of control over my life.
My husband, bless him, noticed these symptoms and urged me to get help. With a combination of therapy and medication, I slowly started to feel like myself again. Again, I was one of the lucky ones.
Perinatal Mood and Anxiety Disorders are the #1 medical complication related to childbearing in the United States yet only 40% are detected and diagnosed and of those, only 60% of women receive treatment. It's time to end the stigma, educate professionals, and rally together as a community to support new and veteran parents. It takes a village...let's make ours strong!
Postpartum Support International's Climb Out of the Darkness is the world's largest event for raising awareness of perinatal mood and anxiety disorders, while raising money and building community.
You are not alone. You are not to blame. With help, you will be well.
If you or someone you know is suffering, PSI can help: Call 1.800.994.4773 or Text 503.894.9453